Confessions of a Mother

[jeny]

I confess, I was a totally selfish being before you came,

I confess I thought I loved your Dad as much as any one person can love another,
but I was wrong.

I confess, sometimes late at night I wait for you to wake up, unable to sleep myself until I can bring you to our bed and watch you breathe.

I confess, I am glad you refuse to take a bottle from me, because I don't want to give up nursing.

I may act a little annoyed, but I confess it makes me secretly happy that it's only me you want when you're upset.

I confess, I do think you are the best looking baby I have ever seen...maybe that has ever existed.

I may want you to grow up, but I confess I don't really want to see the day you no longer fit comfortably in my lap with my arms around you.

I confess, I love you more than I love myself. I confess, I love you more than I love God. And I confess that when your aunt says she loves God more than her baby, I know she's a liar.

I confess, I would take every ounce of pain and regret life has to offer upon myself for you to not experience any of it. But I cannot. So I confess that I will cry twice as much as you do for every hurt you get.

I confess, when I watch you stand, alone and not holding onto anything, and your face looks so concentrated wanting to take that step, I want to scoop you into my arms for fear you will learn to walk, and then walk away from me.

I will never be the same, I am a mother.

I confess...there is NO thing sadder than the loss of a mother...anyone's mother. It is the equivalent of a heart being ripped asunder.

Trust me.

Love them while they are here...bitches that they are, for you will wish you had later, if you don't.

[lucy]

This is lovely, Jen.

My daughter and I are often at odds with each other these days, but usually there is some deep recognition that the tangles are merely on the surface....love is awesome.

Badnews.

I know. I came home from Japan to be with my mother....:)

[truelies]

Truly a non-feminist piece of prose jeny.

[Indigo]

Lost my mother when she was 52 and I was 24, she died suddenly. Now my life is "two kids later" and too much life experience to go with it.

Maybe I'll share some stuff here.

I know it's an old post, Jeny, but you spoke the truth -- motherhood changes everything .... forever. That took guts and I applaud you for it.

[ponygurl]

Truly a non-feminist piece of prose jeny.

I think it's very feminist. Being a mother is all about being female.

[ponygurl]

Lost my mother when she was 52 and I was 24, she died suddenly. Now my life is "two kids later" and too much life experience to go with it.

Maybe I'll share some stuff here.

I know it's an old post, Jeny, but you spoke the truth -- motherhood changes everything .... forever. That took guts and I applaud you for it.

How on earth did you dig that one up indigo.

Be careful what you share on here. Some posters here will interpret what you post in their own manner , and run with their own misconceptions. Even those who don't have a clue what they are speaking about.
If it's truly personal.. keep it that way.
Of course.. with badnews gone, a large portion of the idiocy will cease. 8)

[Indigo]

I don't get involved in feminist versus non-feminist, I left that behind years ago. For me, the feminist movement left women like me behind, took away the validity and support of our choice to stay home with our children. I'm tired of the Mommy Wars so I don't get involved in those battles. I know my own sacrifices as a mother, and as a wife. I do what I have to do.

And Pony, that is not anything against you or your views .... for me, "feminist" is a four letter word and has been for a long time.

[ponygurl]

I don't get involved in feminist versus non-feminist, I left that behind years ago. For me, the feminist movement left women like me behind, took away the validity and support of our choice to stay home with our children. I'm tired of the Mommy Wars so I don't get involved in those battles. I know my own sacrifices as a mother, and as a wife. I do what I have to do.

And Pony, that is not anything against you or your views .... for me, "feminist" is a four letter word and has been for a long time.

Heh.. I was just razzing truelies.. ;D

[Indigo]

How on earth did you dig that one up indigo.

Be careful what you share on here. Some posters here will interpret what you post in their own manner , and run with their own misconceptions. Even those who don't have a clue what they are speaking about.
If it's truly personal.. keep it that way.
Of course.. with badnews gone, a large portion of the idiocy will cease. 8)


I find some amazing stuff when I "browse" .... ;)

I'm careful with what I share everywhere, but thanks for the warning. Nearly everyone who knows me for any length of time knows of the major things that have happened in my life -- it's impossible to understand me otherwise. I responded to your own post simply to give my support and understanding of your thoughts.

Yes, I saw lots of stuff from badnews .... that person needs psychiatric care, not a forum. (I'm not being sarcastic.)

[ponygurl]

Yes, I saw lots of stuff from badnews .... that person needs psychiatric care, not a forum. (I'm not being sarcastic.)


;D